PSYCHOPATH on the BRICK WALL!

watch your step if you dare risk getting closer to me.

A pot of memories



A lot has happened for the past few weeks. I went to my friend's swimming/sleepover party at Laguna. You'll never guess what happened from there. I guess you could say I slightly changed. I had fun of course. I had the time of my life. Everyone was totally great and awesome to be with! Met new friends and most of my bestfriend's family :) I got thrown into the pool in my PJs. Documented every moment of it using my friend's SLR... I just had a blast. It broke my simbang gabi though... I learned to finally open my eyes underwater! Yey! Totes love that weekend with them!


After my weekend with them, can you believe it, I find myself preoccupied with my cellphone?! :"> Calls and sweet text messages are very much appreciated, but hey! That's another story I will tell you soon. Haha. After the said weekend, I had another sleepover at Angela's and Johanna's place (the middle girl and the other girl in white are sisters). We shared our "aaaaaaaaaaaaaahhh" moments with Nicole (the girl at the very left) :">. Ces couldn't come (the girl in middle of the two sisters), but of course she was greatly updated with the business plans that we talked about. Can you believe it?! The five of us are going to be business partners! I'm too excited for 2011. I ended 2010 with a bang and with my most treasured friends! Totes can't wait! Haha. Till the next blog? Have to go, I gotta take this VERY IMPORTANT phone call :">


Tuesday, December 28, 2010

3:55 PM

We're at the scene of the crime.




Made it myself using Photoshop. My Photoscape is in the desktop and well... Anyways we just had our Huffleclaw get together! Yey! We lack time so we have this huge hungover. We did enjoy! Loads! Everything was Marvi! I get to bond with my fellow Scriptwriters at the Taxi when we went home. We had to share stuff during our dinner. Haha! We know something! :> There were loads of teasing, loads of question and answer portions, discussion and well picture taking :D We were incomplete though... but I'm sure the next time we have another get together we'll be totally complete then we'll stay up really really late. Love you guys! I will totally miss you! :)


Friday, December 17, 2010

12:50 AM

meltdown, breakdown, whatever it is... I'm down.



Clearly my grades and my Cumulative Grade Point Average will go down. I'm sure of it. I'm starting to loose hope in the possibility of me shifting to my desired course. I feel like I'm in the value of sad city. I really think that maybe everything is just a dream that maybe I'm not really that meant to go into that path. It scares me when I think that it will never be the path I will end up in. I really feel like dropping out and moving to the school where I was originally suppose to be. I feel like a total shit right now. I feel hopeless, depressed and angry at myself that no matter how much I try and try and try, something is stopping me from getting there.

It never occurred to me the possibility of not reaching my dreams... probably because I was always hoping and dreaming and reaching like the very very high of things... I can literally feel my brain collapse right now. I'm actually going to beg for grades. Literally beg for them. I just need it so I could still be able to qualify for the course I'm shifting. This would be the first time that I'm going to beg for a higher grade. I am  beyond scared.


Wednesday, December 15, 2010

4:07 PM

Image shift.



You're my role model, well was, at least for now. I thought you were open to me, I shared to you my secrets... only to realize that you never actually shared any of yours. I'm sorry for meddling with your phone, I'm not the girl that has a Blackberry, but what the fuck, I'm NOT sorry for meddling with your phone, cause then I wouldn't find out about the truth with you. I'm guessing you never intended for me to find out. I'm also guessing you never wanted me to know. You KNOW what I'm talking about. BUT HEY, I knew way back about it, well I had a huge hunch, I even confronted you, and what did you do... you deliberately lied to me, denied the whole thing, assured to me that it was nothing, treated me like I didn't know... but guess what I do. I DO know. I'm not stupid. I never was. Stop treating me like I am. I'm not a kid. God knows, you're a selfish bitch. Yes, I am so angry at you right now. Do you realize that I had to deny one of the most awesomest guy, because I placed you before my feelings, because I RESPECT the pact that we made. Only to find out that you've been backstabbing me all along? WHAT. THE. FUCK. How long have you been backstabbing me? How long were planning to keep this from me?

Right now I'm guessing you'd probably show this blog to a dozen other people, well guess what MOTHER, those dozen other people will know where I am coming from, those dozen other people will understand and will most likely side with what I feel. They will not tell you, no they will not, but look at them in the eye, you'll see that they know I'M RIGHT. I WAS ALWAYS RIGHT. Here in this scene I'm right, you're wrong and there is NOTHING you can do about it. C'mon Mum, when did I ever tell you to NOT be happy? When have I ever told you to NOT live your life? BUT WHY DO YOU HAVE TO KEEP IT A SECRET? LET ALONE, WHY DO YOU HAVE TO LIE ABOUT IT TO ME? I'm upset because now, the perfect image of my own mother is shattered and destroyed and the image that replaced the perfect image will never change. God knows how long I wanted to rebel against you, but I chose not to. I chose not to because I know it'd give you a hard time. I am so angry, I am so mad, I HATE YOU right now. I thought in my whole life, I'd be one of those teenagers who had a perfect relationship with their parents, only to realize that my own mother was the one destroying the relationship. Right now, live your life and I hope you get something out of it you lying bitch, because now I AM NOT HOLDING MYSELF BACK ANY LONGER FROM THE THINGS I WANT TO DO. You live your life, and I'll live mine.


Tuesday, December 14, 2010

11:48 AM

I'm a little bitty girl, with a little bitty world.




Lea Erika Magadia Villena, age 17. IV, EV, LV, Lea, Erika or Ika for short. I have many names, but hey I'm still me no matter what you use. This is where I shall tell the tale of the awesome monstrosity that is my me. Hello stranger, and welcome to my life. 


3:12 AM

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Hi. I'm Lea Erika but you can call me Ika, most people nowadays call me that. I'm a 17 year old petite female. I love fashion, film, music, photography, art and anything pop culture. I have this hype for speeeeed. Guess you can say I'm somewhat a car person. Well not totally. Not most people know that. I love adrenaline rushes. I act upon impulse. Despite loving adrenaline rushes, on most cases I'm afraid of heights... but I'm more afraid of spiders. I have arachnophobia since ever. I'm weird. I love movies and all types of film. I'm a movie buff. I do movie marathons. BAZINGA. I giggle. I giggle a lot. I like kids. Have I told you I'm weird? I'm from a Filipino-Chinese-Spanish-English and Native American descent. I'm weird. Well toodles!

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